Catharsis
Catharsis is defined as the purification and purgation of emotions - particularly pity and fear - through art or any extreme change in emotion that results in renewal and restoration. (Wikipedia, 2/26) It's purification time... This is going to have to qualify as art because I'm tired of the extreme emotional roller coaster that has been my life for the better part of 5 years now. My wife left me about that time. The first year was the worst, but to say that it has been good at any point since then would be stupidity. I'm not blaming her for leaving, I would have left sooner...or maybe I wouldn't have left at all. It's hard to say. Consider this, I was a cheater, liar, drug abuser, emotional abuser, and I had a bitter heart. Those words hurt me to hear, to write, and to be told. Upon hearing them from my wife I became defensive. I am none of those things. I do use drugs, I have cheated, lied, manipulated her emotions, and harbored negative feelings toward her,